Growing Up - Meeting Yourself (again)

There is no doubt in my mind that aging is difficult for some people, I remember the first time I realized I was getting old. I turned 30... Now, most people say "that's not old, you're still young"; I know that I'm young still. But, it doesn't mean that I don't feel as if I've hit a wall when it comes to my age. One of my favorite quotes is "I'm on the wrong side of 25"

I remember being in a meeting at work and they brought out a card and cupcakes to celebrate my birthday. There was a big glittery 30 on the card. That is when it hit me. I'm not in my twenties, I'm an adult. I have to be a grown up. I'm mature (sort of) and where do I go from here?

I always told my best friend (who is 7 years younger than me) that she would wake up someday and feel like a completely different person. As if falling asleep and waking up again had changed her somehow. It's happened to me a few times. You get to a point in your life where things don't matter anymore, or they start to matter. You look at things differently and it's beautiful and tragic all at once. But, it doesn't mean it's not you. You're simply growing up, changing, becoming the person you really are.

I've been lucky enough to have a strong sense of self for most of my life. I've never really questioned myself or wanted to be different. I like who I am. Honestly, I think I'm pretty great. I find my morals and my opinions to be top notch and I wouldn't trade knowing myself for anything.

I have a friend who I feel is struggling to find herself again. I wonder if she's too worried about what everyone else thinks, and casts aside how she feels. I worry that she wants to be something she may never be. I understand that women and men are different in the aging process. But, if you haven't found yourself or let yourself change over time. Then how do you know what you should be evolving into as a person?

I guess that is for each of us to answer ourselves.